The hometown goodbye

Today was possibly the most emotional day of this move so far. I knew it would be. I made a 12 or so hour stop in Tallahassee to sleep and rest for a bit, along with saying some goodbyes. I didn't realize it would be so sad. I am sure part of the reason it was so emotional is because I had about 2 hours of sleep in 2 days (I have since added 5 hours to that amount of sleep)... and the other part is just sadness over knowing it is time to leave this coast, but wishing some could come with me.
The hardest goodbye, other than my mother, was my soul sista. This was a much needed in-person goodbye, yet unexpected as it has been quite some time since we have seen each other, and she is not good at the goodbye thing. It was healing for me, but was followed by a lot of pain and harm to myself. One, my own emotions. Two, the harm coming from a third party who decided to verbally attack me an hour before I was set to leave town. Apparently, the soul sista and I needed permission to speak. Yes, I am being serious. It was so hurtful, and honestly shocking, way past left field. It does not deserve further mention or attention, but I will say I am confident I did the right thing for us both, and I am assured I am an "amazing woman" as the soul sista put it. Thank you for that. We are GAWW :)
I do not wish to blog about the rest of the goodbyes because they are all see you laters anyway, and I am already missing my mom and worried about her. I am blessed to be best friends with my mother. Truly. I did not see my biological father, and did not expect to. Nor did I see Bear, but we connect all the time, regardless of distance and space. I am blessed.
So my lesson from my 12 hours in my hometown is this. No matter how kind, loving, or honest my intention, there will always be those who find fault. Be true to myself anyway. Continue giving and loving, no matter what. Assumptions make people look like fools, and cause a lot of harm when followed up with assault. Carry the memories that make me truly happy, stay connected with those who I wouldn't want to live without, forget those who have hatred in their soul towards me. After all, life is about nurture and growth. If we can't do that, what are we doing?
I know for me, I am flying... one chapter in my life is closing, another is opening, part of that is in the goodbyes, but the focal point of this journey is in the Fly Butterfly Fly.