I don't know...

Somehow, life has a way of changing us without us even noticing it until the change has occurred. This has what has been happening to me.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am typically a planner. I like order. I like structure. Most importantly, I like to know exactly what is happening, when it is happening, and I must plan accordingly. Call it control, call it obsessive, call it what you like. It has been a staple in my life.
However, things have now changed. Without any control of my own (clearly), I have become this "I don't know" girl.
Example: "Carla, when are you going to California?" "Where will you live?" "What will you do with your condo?" "How long will you be there?" "Are you going to move permanently?" All of these questions, all I can say is I don't know.
Two weeks ago, there were a lot more "I don't knows" than this, but it has been the same clueless wandering through life for about a month. Very little planning or knowing, just going with it all. This part doesn't shock me the most. The part that shocks me the most is that I am generally calm when answering such questions. Maybe because I have to be. Maybe because I've changed. Maybe HP doing for me what I cannot do for myself.
My bet is on the latter.
So, readers, enter a more relaxed, laid back, go with the flow kind of Carla. Will I go back to my rigid ways one day? I don't know. And I accept that today. For this, I am grateful.