Do you ever miss someone so much you cannot breathe? That you feel the life has been pulled out of you and all you can do is sob, hoping your tears will wash the pain away? It may be something that triggers it, or it may just hit out of nowhere, but one thing is certain-- the grief of missing that someone hits and hits hard. I hate that. How long will it last? Will these moments come intermittently forever? I hear they will come further apart as time goes on, that times heals all... I should know. It's not like I haven't been through it before. But none of that makes it better when it hits. The only thing that makes it better is knowing it will go away... And trying not to think about the fact that it will one day hit again. That grief will make you her bitch. Over and over again, as long as you live. For tonight, I can write her away. I can cry. I can feel it and let it go. Until it comes again...
Those are my raw thoughts for the night
Because it can't always be rainbows and butterflies
Love to all, light to all
DBear
